Today (July 5) is three years since Zadie had her trach placed. All day yesterday, I kept thinking of July 4th three years ago, when we were woken up by a phone call from Zadie's neonatologist. She had had a rough weekend, having lots of trouble breathing after her Gtube surgery a few days before. The morning of the 4th, the doctors decided she needed to be intubated and because of her tricky airway, they couldn't get the tube in. We had to give permission over the phone for her to be put under general anesthesia (for the second time in just a few days!) in order for them to intubate her. When we got to see her later, it was rough. That was probably the hardest day up to that point. Her little arms were pinned down to the bed so that she couldn't pull the tube out. I felt awful seeing her look at me, like she wanted me to help her. It was one of the worst days of my life, seeing her like that, and not knowing what was ahead of us.
|July 4, 2011|
Once she was intubated, Zadie's neonatologist, Dr. Ruben, was very nervous about her pulling the tube out, since she was a big, full term baby (much different than the preemies she was surrounded by in the NICU). Seeing an experienced NICU doctor nervous definitely made me nervous! She told us that day that Zadie needed a tracheostomy. This was the first time that a trach was even mentioned to us. It wasn't a suggestion or something to be discussed. It just what was going to happen, and as fast as possible. When the surgeon said he didn't have time until two days later, Dr. Ruben pushed him to make time the next day.
So, on July 5, 2011, at 5 weeks old, Zadie had her trach placed. It was the first day since the day she was born that she didn't have any tubes or tape on her face. I had been wishing for it to be gone, but I didn't want it this way. Still, it was wonderful to see her pretty face and for her to be able to be on her back comfortably (with her breathing issues, she had to be on her side or belly in order for her to breathe properly.)
|July 5, 2011|
Fast forward three years, Zadie's a big sister (still working on being gentle), a little sister (annoying her big brother every chance she can get) and does just about everything any other 3 year old does. Today, she went swimming! I can't wait until she gets the trach out, but she's doing just fine with it. Next step...sleep study on Thursday night!
|July 5, 2014|